I was wrong

For you I was a groupie, I was a brainwashed doll, a 50s housewife
I left my  family, my friends, running after your meaningless ideals
and now I regret every second, now I see just how wrong I’ve been.

Even as I kissed you and told you that I loved you, I knew
in the back of my mind, I can do better than someone like you
I can do better than crying myself to sleep and living blue.

I should have never revisited the idea of you, I shouldn’t have fallen again
because where was once a giggle and a memory now there’s a broken heart
and where there was hope there’s now disaster, and a girl who cries for help

is there anybody out there who can save her from herself?

Juliet. 

Duele

Duele y no sé que hacer, duele y esta vez no te quiero llamar
todo lo que sos no lo necesito, pero no puedo despegarme de vos
y te pienso, te siento, te recuerdo, sueño que te toco y que te tengo
te veo aunque no estás, te quiero aunque vos nunca me quisiste de verdad.

Desperdicio lo poco que tengo, lo poco que soy en buscarte a vos
vos que no merecés ni un cuarto de lo que te puedo dar
porque quise darte todo y tu mejor respuesta fue hacerme llorar
y decirme que es mi culpa amar tanto a alguien que no sabe amar.

 
Nunca me habían odiado así, nunca me habían tratado tan mal              
y si algo aprendí de todo este horror es a no dejarme pisar
nunca fuiste suficiente, todo lo bueno de vos lo invento mi imaginación.



Juliet.

I don't even remember your face

Your hand left a mark on my shoulder
there are mascara stains on your pillow case
our paths crossed once and that won’t be easy to erase.

I can still hear you call my name, all alone at your place
wine and cheese, videogames and TV
a life of things that only mean something to you and me.

I wore your t-shirts and your pants,           
we shared sheets, kisses, coffee, schemes
and now I’m left to mourn what you threw away.

Every day the same routine, you play hard to get
while I cry, beg and make a fool of myself
because you only like it when I bleed
because I only like it if you stay, and this time you didn’t. This time you ran away.

Juliet.

Futures like Chicago

I miss you and it hurts like hell. I miss you and my eyes bleed from the cliché. I miss you and it's all so dramatic that it turns pathetic if you listen closer.

I could say that I just cannot breathe, that living is not living without you, but in a few weeks I'll forget your face and these words would be vain, so what exactly can I say?

My sanity is taking my psyche's right to be in pain, and I'm left with this numbness I can't begin to explain. Who are you? Where am I?

Loving you I was sad, impotent, defenceless, but living without you is a 24/7 out of body experience. I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm bored. I want to move on already.

Why can't I? Watch me. Let me.



Juliet.

Racing again

Never in my wildest dreams would I have ever imagined myself here, wondering how you're doing, writing an ode to your green eyes and the memories of what we never really had.

I went back to the thought of you by walking down the wrong path for a while. Now I just like walking past your front door and imagining just how much more extreme it would be with you.

I will never understand what happened, I hope I can hear the truth from you. Back then I felt so used, but after so many years that's a feeling I've got accustomed to.

Whatever happens, I've learned my lesson. I can play with you for a while, though, just like when we were twelve and red was our favorite color.


Juliet.

Blue, out of the blue

Oh I lied, yes, of course I did.
I thought I had forgotten
I thought it had never happened
but the truth is, some things you can't erase.

So one chord and I'm there again
blue, out of the blue, struggling to understand
I dream of being happy
and wake up without you here.


Juliet.

Losing it

I wish I could change this, but I can't. And it's happening again. But there's a limit to every heart and this is mine.
You're not even there, you have never been there. You only pretend to listen, pretend to understand and then walk away. Although this time you've walked a little further, and the distance I cannot bear.
I don't understand your words, your promises from past times. Why would someone say something they don't mean? It doesn't make sense to me.
I have never been misleading, I have never ever lied because I can't. And as a prize I get to cry my foolishness away.
Nothing... works. I used to believe in things and now, now my thoughts are a far cry from reality and this is a world I don't know how to live in.
You came in, changed the game, wrote your own rules and made me play. You took the money and ran away, so pathetically unfair.
How am I supposed to trust again? When everything I used to love doesn't even exist.

And the sad part is, I still want you back.



Juliet.

El único

Siempre vas a ser mi único amor de verdad, porque nunca te tuve, porque entre nosotros nunca nada va a pasar.
Y siempre vas a ser vos, puro, lejano, estéril, lienzo en blanco. Y siempre voy a ser yo, llena de colores que nunca vas a ver.
A veces te pienso, otras te siento, pero verte es lo que más me duele, porque en mi mente no existimos ambos en el mismo ambiente.
Un día respiraste mi aire, un día te deje mirarme. Nunca volvimos a ser lo mismo.


Juliet.

Another Broken Promise

I know I promised I'd never come back
but promises, as I know well, are made to be broken
because nothing lasts forever
because we're all going to end.

My fingers can travel and move back and forth
but the cliché I'm creating never ceases, never stops
and I feel sorry for myself, for my words
I feel very sorry for you and me both.



Juliet.